“do right things or do things right?”

i guess i’ve been trying to do things right, but not doing right things.

that’s why i see no light at the end of the tunnel.
what’s in front of me are only illusions, but so real that i think it’s true,
yet when i fall for it, it falls apart, like it has never been real.

again and again, i try to prove, to search for evidence that it has been there.
again and again, i realize it’s only in my head, nowhere else and nothing more.

then i realize further.
no matter how hard and how many times i try, if it’s not the right thing,
even though how right it may seem or how right i’m doing it,
it is still not right.

from now on, i should just be doing right things. the right right things.